Two friends and I boarded a fishing boat before sunrise in Rockport, Massachusetts. I couldn’t betray the fact that I was as excited to photograph the voyage as I was to fish. The weather was perfect, the company was great, and the fishing was fair. We all brought some fresh seafood home to cook. I apologize for the big green frames obscuring the photos. Something I put on there at some time and can’t figure out how to get them off. I think you can click an image to start a carousel.
While we were underway, I was free to run all over the boat at the thousand shots that called to me. The dawn is always a special and typically photogenic time of day, and I was excited by the salt air and swells of the sea. For these shots along the rail, I was so obsessed with the composition that I forgot about the Giant Atlantic Ocean behind it. It’s always better to have the horizon level. You can fix the tilt a bit in your photo software. Or sometimes it looks good on a rakish angle.
I was getting warmed up on our 45-minute ride to the first fishing site. On the upper deck, I was keen to shoot the low morning sun over the wheelhouse, or through it. The image just speaks of heading out. I like the emotion that evokes; it’s excitement, adventure! So, I’m moving all around a boat that’s moving all around on a sea that’s moving all around (we were graced with shallow and long swells). The only thing not moving is the sun itself. First it’s left of the mast, then right, then dead center. No doubt some of this was my “framing” of the composition. A boat rides the swell, which will cant her off course a bit, depending on how you’re facing the current. On the slope side, the Captain adds the correction to keep us on heading. The shadows danced about, first there, then not. Broad then slim. The geometry of the shot is a little overwhelming, and the shapes of the shadows were one more thing to keep track of along with the sun and the wheelhouse and the rail and the deck. I hope you’re proud of me, the sea is pretty level in all the frames. (Everything I post for Photoshoot is unedited)
Well, when we dropped anchor, of course I stowed the camera because I was busy fishing. I kick myself for not taking at least a little time to shoot some ubiquitous shots of people actually fishing. I guess I’ll do that next trip. As you can see, I continued to be fascinated with the rail, the foreshortening, the sweeping lines. I spent ten minutes composing and shooting the handrail at the stair, mesmerized by the different lines and angles of the railing, the deck, the stair and the shadow. I tried to capture the rolling roil of the boat, the green foamy sea. I often shoot a reflection of myself in glass, or a photo of my shadow, arms poised in camera-wielding position. I got the shadow “self-portrait” in the briny wash on that last frame.
After more not-photographed fishing in a couple of locations, we hauled anchor and headed for home in the late afternoon of a beautiful August Saturday. Anglers forwarded their fish to the crew, who filleted the day’s catch and bagged it and iced it. The sight of a fishing boat returning to port is as good as a dinner bell to the gulls and other seabirds. I tried to capture their quantity, and their tenaciousness as they dove into the wake to retrieve the scraps thrown overboard. Joe and I spotted a gull that was missing a foot, and we wondered at how that may have happened. I had to get a pic of that one.
All in all, a good shoot. Didn’t drop my camera in the Atlantic, nor skewer myself on a fishhook. I’m fairly pleased at the photostock I brought home, with the exception of the missing fishermen. Really it was an easy shoot as so many are, especially in good weather. An interesting subject, shapes and lines galore, light and shadow and even the sun to play with. The compositions were the things that grabbed up all my attention, and I mean all of it. It’s a good lesson I learn over and over again, to look at everything in the shot. I’ve tossed a lot of winners because of some unwanted distraction that I was completely blind to when composing the shot. Target fixation it’s called among fighter pilots. That’s where you’re so busy following your foe through the dog fight you don’t see the Earth coming up at you. Good thing I wasn’t flying!
Shot with Nikon D3200 DSLR and Nikkor zoom VR lenses. The longest I own is 300 mm. Some shots use a wider lens. I always shoot in full manual.
Hope you enjoyed the shoot or the shots or the chatter.
So I retired on April 15th, and before the end of the month I had written and recorded my opus, “Home”. Now what am I gonna do? (The recording is way at the end and 9 minutes long, so if you start it now it might be done by the time you’re finished reading!)((Yes, 9 minutes. Didn’t I say it was an opus? That’s short for an opus, really.))
Moving on to painting my masterpiece, I guess. I’ve recently completed my first seascape, my first breaking wave! As a student, I’m pleased with the result, generally. I had the hardest time getting the hue of the sand right. First it looked like snow and then like mud and then like flesh tone. I called the piece “Fleshtone Beach” for a while. I really struggled with the scrubby plants, re-working the underpainting and then getting carried away and ending up with a green I’m just not satisfied with. Mostly it’s “art-mill” style, which is a good way to practice brush strokes and palette knife work, but tends to throw some rules out the window.
I’ve recently tried to break out of the confinement of training myself to paint in realist or in impressionist styles. Those remain my lofty goals, but most efforts in that area bring frustration due to my undeveloped skills. It’s just something I need to continue to pursue patiently. Like learning to ride a bike, but falling down a hundred thousand times before you get it. So my first experience with Galkyd painting medium met with mixed results. I should have used a clear gel or maybe even oil. I foolishly ignored the fast-drying characteristics of the Galkyd. I covered the canvas with it, to try a wet underpainting method. I wasn’t half way through the piece and it started drying and getting sticky, so I had to rush to complete it. Anyway, it still struck some people (or they were stricken by it, I guess), so it hangs in the gallery. I call the piece “Galkyd Lake Sunrise”. A good lesson. And p.s. to any novices out there: Galkyd would be good mixed on the palette as needed. It leaves the paint with a high gloss and dries quickly. It says it’s tacky in 24 hours, but in my experience it was completely dry by then. If you have experience with clear gel I’d be keen on hearing about it.
This is my first post of my attempts at painting in oils. Most of my “best” works have been given to children and friends. I imagine I would still find them flawed and amateur if I saw them now. An artist is never satisfied with their own work.
I regret digital media is not the kindest to such things. The paints have pigments the camera can see but we can’t. I’m using my Ott Light which is supposed to be “daylight” for painting under, but is more of a fluorescent light. Anyways, I picked the images that were closest to showing the colors correctly. The last little piece, “Island Life”, is currently on the easel. It’s a small format canvas, 5 x 9 inches, which brings its own challenges. As you can see, the basics have been laid in. The next step is adding branches and foliage to the trees, then some shimmers on the water and at the waterline of the rocks. I might try some brushy blueberries, but the foliage debacle in the seascape has left me gun-shy.
I love to paint and write and play music. The writing has taken the back seat lately to the other pursuits, and to life in general now that spring has brought all that mowing and gardening and sunbathing to Engleville. I’ve spent a lot of manic high hours in the music studio, and have put up a couple of scratch versions of my songs. This one is a bit of collaboration with my son Ryan, who was doodling with a theme on the piano. He said he wanted to name it, and decided it reminded him of our beloved Victorian Ark that houses us. This inspired me to write the lyrics, and I couldn’t stop until I cobbled together an entire rock anthem. I’m hot on the trail of a couple more new songs, so won’t make any promises about the writing. As always, the tunes I post are not polished master recordings, just my dabblings in the studio to get the songs out of my head.
Until next time!
Is it this house? Is it these walls? Is it these old familiar rooms and airy halls?
The Sparrow nigh? This Mourning Dove? Each day some new treasure here to love?
No. It’s not of timber. No. It’s not of stone. It’s a warm and whole belonging. I’m Home.
Did I choose? Has it been known By all the stars forever I’d call this my own?
How can it be These ancient trees And fragrant lawns could be all the world to me?
Here, this simple man, In this humble glen I can Feel Home.
Snow will fall. Winds will blow. I don’t claim it’s always Paradise, y’know.
Through chilling cold, Each tempest thrown, Through everything that cuts me to the bone,
Here, the storms may test me. Here, no ill can best me. The surest place I’ve ever known Is Home.
If you’re adrift Out on the sea Amidst the raging storms of this mortality,
Or slashed and burned, Or beat to hell, Or lost to us at the bottom of your well,
If you need a rescue, A place where you can run to, I have a place for you, There’s always room At Home.
The boy fell to his knees, his face dropped to his hands. What was I to do, being just a mortal man? I said “You’re at the end of your rope son, not the end of your road.” Sometimes you have to help a broken angel with their load.
I see angels all around me. Angels you can see. Living, breathing angels, right where they ought to be. My whole world’s full of angels, from sea to shining sea. It’s a world full of angels waiting for us to let them be.
A man clutched my hands as tears welled in his eyes. I said “There are no words. We’re never ready to say goodbye.” Most folks don’t know, sometimes angels need a hand. He said “No one knows my pain. No one understands.”
I told him “There’s angels all around you. Angels you can see. Living, breathing angels right where they need to be. My whole world’s full of angels, from sea to shining sea. It’s a world full of angels waiting for you and me.”
I see that little baby, sleeping in her bed. I see the days and weeks and months and years that lay ahead. Her mother and her brother, and all her kith and kin, This whole great wide world around her, all the same beneath the skin.
I see angels all around me. Angels you can see. Living, breathing angels right where they want to be. My whole world’s full of angels from sea to shining sea. It’s a world full of angels waiting for us To set them free.
My songs are not polished recordings ready for airplay, just sketches and renderings of the way they sound in my head. Consider it more like having me over to your house to play a song for you. I’m no Roy Orbison or Bob Dylan when it comes to writing, and no Dave Gilmore on guitar or Steve Tyler on vocals, but I have a great time making these tunes. I’m up to six recordings for “my new album” Perihelion.
Angels has been around a long time. It is a true story. The boy in the first verse is my son. The man in the second verse was a neighbor. The baby in the last verse is my granddaughter Lizzy, now 17.
Look around. You’ll see there are living, breathing angels all around you, too. Just waiting for you.
Rewind to last May. Daughter Kerry and her husband hosted the Outstanding In Our Field festival at the farm. It was chilly, drizzly and gray, but folks were overdue for time outside, and time in public without restrictions and masks. Weather did not deter the crowd, and several hundred people attended to listen to the Barn Band, and peruse the booths of many vendors. Daughter Kerry sold flowers from the flower wagon while daughter Miranda manned her own booth in partnership with her mother-in-law Kathy. Kathy is a very skilled seamstress and crafter extraordinaire. Her handmade table runners and place mats are truly works of art. Miranda got herself a new machine that customizes coffee mugs and can cozies, and offered these souvenirs of the event. The fire department brought a truck to show off, and promptly got it stuck in the mud. Luckily there are a number of tractors on the farm, and quick work was made of the vehicle’s retrieval (and what a great story!)
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The shoot was a little challenging in the sense the weather was poor and skies gray. It wasn’t difficult to find color though, between the vendors and the flowers. I included a couple shots of the parking area and the mud to convey the weather. Photos do not relate how chilly and breezy it was, but everyone was in great spirits. Breaking out into spring, leaving winter behind, and the first occasion of the year to allow a big social gathering without masks. The Festival was a resounding success, and hopes are high to do it again next year!
Crescent Moon Studio has been many things for me. It started with music, a long time ago, when I was doing overdubs on reel-to-reel tape decks, incorporating cassettes (Yikes! I know, right? 1 and 7/8 inches per second? Seriously? Slowest tape speed ever in the history of tape speeds. Can you say wow and flutter?) I used a radio shack mixer and a reverb unit that made my voice sound more like a sound effect from a monster movie. I used a $69 keyboard for drums, bass, strings and horns! (p.s.: I have a Korg M50 now, though the voices don’t really sound much better than the old Casio wannabe).
When I was a youngster, in my teens and twenties, I was a little starstruck with music, and imagined I might pen a song that would sell, or perhaps be discovered by a talent scout as our band Big Country slammed and blasted it’s way through 4-hour sets at Art’s Tavern. I’ve been writing songs for as long as I can remember. I recall driving my go-kart around the maple tree in my parent’s front yard at around ten years old, and composed this one. I don’t know how the Grammy people missed it.
“Go little go kart, racing them all. Go little go kart, even racing Pope Paul.”
It had a melody and everything. Okay, so I didn’t even know what a Pope was, and I think Paul was indeed the Pope at the time. I’m not sure if he ever raced go karts, though.
Then, along came grownup life for a guy that did not hitchhike to L.A. with a guitar on his back and a suitcase full of dreams. A job. A car. Before long, a wife, children, a home and mortgage and a disgruntled boiler and bicycles and birthdays and graduations. My guitar sat in a corner, sometimes for whole years. Sure, I got it out and played a few tunes around a camp fire, and played the music for Ryan’s wedding, but mostly it was a keepsake from bygone days, it seemed.
And so, Crescent Moon opened its doors to my other artistic pursuits. Things that could be crammed into precious evenings and weekends and lunch hours. Composing poetry, doing a lot of photography. Making the leap from 35 mm film to digital cameras. Taking up oil painting. I liked oils because my parents both delved into oil painting, and the smell is always an olfactory flashback for me. Also, I could work on a piece and put it away for the week, and when I got back to it the paints were still wet. In more recent years I was as surprised as anyone that I could write a novel and wanted to do so, and the Sasha Of The Chukchi Sea series was born. Along came blogs, and it seemed writing was now my siren. Add a blog for the studio, to share photos and some narrative about their composition or challenges of the shoot.
2020. Ugh. For a brief moment, we thought it was cool that the television show that launched Barbara Walters’ career had actually caught up to its futuristic title. Then, the C word, and this time, not cancer. The Covid pandemic took a world that was swirling too fast and whipped it into a frenzy. Then took the top off the blender and hit the High button. The world had gone mad, and my simple life in the country was overshadowed daily with paranoia and sickness, loss and death. During this time I penned “Circles”. While it ended up as a catchy tune, the original poem was one of solemn resignation that my life was effectively as good as over. An ailing wife at home, an ailing father two hours away. Timing could not be worse as my Aunt Marie died (of natural causes) just months before my Uncle Richard, my dad’s brother. In August, another death unrelated to covid, rocked our little world as my wife’s best friend of 54 years passed. Life was never quite the same after that. In just four months, my wife would follow Liz to the grave. Three months after my father died.
When I was a teenager, I was smitten with southwestern art, and adopted as my personal symbol and talisman, The Phoenix. In legend, The Phoenix rises from fire in a 100-year cycle. The Phoenix has been used countless times to describe something that “rises from the ashes”. I had forgotten about my association with The Phoenix until just recently. Then I realized how symbolic it was.
In the wake of my wife’s death, as I sat staring aimlessly out the window, a curvy black case called to me from the corner. I don’t remember exactly when or why, but the guitar found its way to my hands. My Esteban, to be exact. My late mother-in-law had purchased it for me as a gift about fifteen years ago. A “cheap” guitar to an aficionado, but it was the only playable guitar I had. The Ventura V-17 twelve-string acoustic my mother bought for me at the age of sixteen had long since developed a belly warp which wrenched the saddle into an unusable condition. (I had a guy try to fix it, but all that did was mar up the face of the guitar). It is only at this very moment that I realize both these guitars were bought for me by mothers. How curious.
In difficult times, we seek out the comforts of familiarity. We search for the things that remain after loss, the things which are steadfast and enduring and lifelong. The foundations and roots of our lives. My children and grandchildren. The Ark. Windows twice as old as me, antiques and heirlooms. Photos. And my art. It is part of my spirit. Part of me. Dating back to my Go-Kart song and the day I took my dad’s 8mm movie camera and shot a stop-action animation short. Songs that described just what I am going through now. Poems that spoke to me in my own words some important things that I needed to hear. And music.
With the run of the place and no one to answer to, I began to assemble in the parlor my music studio. It began with a new guitar. Well, new to me, it was a used guitar, but a Washburn (with stunning bindings and inlays), not a “cheap” guitar from the Home Shopping network. (Since acquiring several fine guitars, I have a renewed respect for the Esteban, which is pretty impressive for the little it claims to be). Concerned that the ravages of age, particularly arthritis in thumb joints, would arrest my guitar playing career, I decided I should begin to learn to play piano in earnest. I bought a piano. Not just any piano, mind you, and not some black lacquered Yamaha you would expect to find in a studio, but a 1942 Chickering baby grand. Exactly the thing a respectable Victorian parlor should boast of. A few more components, and I was back on track to begin laying down the songs stuck in my head for the last twenty years.
I can’t say there was not an element of denial and repression during this period. The New Moon was a welcome distraction, and one I felt held merit. Music is universal, and even the trinkets I purchased for the studio were good investments. Things my children and grandchildren could proudly inherit. Things that maintain or increase in value if they choose to liquidate them after my demise. Perhaps as important to me was the ability to put my songs “on tape”, in hopes the kids would one day hear them and enjoy them long after I am gone. At the very least, my kids might better understand what I “am about”. Or was.
Like moving from 35mm film to digital format cameras, I purchased a Tascam digital multitrack workstation, and began a new learning curve in recording. There are five or six tunes now, sketched out for my next album, “Perihelion”. Always learning, steady improvements have been made in my playing, singing, and the sometimes-tedious process of recording and mastering songs.
Along about March, the idea of a Ukelele band was floated by my daughter and her husband. They had both purchased guitars 20 years ago, and had a few starter lessons from dad before they fell into their own rhythms of domestic life, jobs, home and children. Their guitars went to the closet. But they were not gone. One fateful day, Matt looked at his now-vintage Fender dreadnought, and considered that the kids were grown, one off to college already, and the other getting her driver’s license. Perhaps he would be interested in renewing his interest in the guitar. My son Ryan also has the guitar I bought for him for Christmas when he was sixteen (the age at which my mother bought me the Ventura 12-string). Low and behold, our mutual friend Carl, a banjoist, was also keen on learning to play guitar, and within a couple of months we discovered our friend Dontay played bass, and would also like to know guitar. And the Cedar Swamp String Band was born.
Okay, so I know we’re not “really” “a band”, in the sense that they are all students essentially, but it’s fun to let them think of themselves as a band. Believe it or not, we have played a few “gigs”, though they were actually just occasions for us to jam on the songs we’re learning. And y’know what? People love them. Or “us” I should say. People are just wowed by someone playing a musical instrument, particularly if they have no such pursuit. (note I did not call it talent or ability, ’cause anyone can learn to do it). We meet every Wednesday and learn about musical instruments and learn to play them. We’ve learned popular songs and are now up to a “set list” of fifteen songs! Sometimes, it is the highlight of my week.
There you have it, the update from Crescent Moon Studio, where I will continue to post photos and the stories of their capture. At some point I may try to post some oil paintings, and the stories of their creation. The poetry mostly lives on Armchair Zen and Chow Dog Zen, and simple tales of a simple life of a country widower will come to Life In Engleville.
Without further ado, another “scratchpad” sketch of a song from Perihelion. This one was co-written by my dog, Chuy. I wrote the chorus and music. It’s a poor mix, in that I have the unbridled bongos and tambourine up a little too high. I’ve been meaning to revisit the mixdown, but have been too busy laying new tracks to go back and polish anything. This one still has the long tail where the song should fade out. And the harmony parts are really rough. Enough about me. Here’s Chuy’s song, Wish.
That I might rise before the sun, Before the waking world’s begun To sing aloud of another day. Reticence is my way.
That I might see the greening grass, Or sparkling snow, and clouds that pass, And beyond them the great wide aquamarine skies The color of your eyes.
Every day I want to live, To do and go, to grow and give. Every day I want to feel These things in life that are real. To love all I can. Every day the time’s at hand. No matter how long, no matter how old, Onto these wishes I’ll hold.
That I might feel hot sunny days, The summer wind as the cottonwood sways. Or driven snow, and chilling cold, When striking out feels brave and bold.
That I might savor this vapor rich With piney woods and muddy ditch, The taste of water, clear and cool, Fresh from a springtime pool.
That I might lay me down to sleep With dreams await, and promises to keep. Knowing, sure as the stars shine above, That I am loved, And so, too, I love.
No matter how long, no matter how old, Onto these wishes I’ll hold.
My son Ryan brought two grandkids with him up to Engleville Pond to do some ice fishing. Ellie and Evan got to see the ice auger at work and listen to dad drone on about how to set a tip-up, then they were free to cavort about. So maybe more cavorting than fishing. It was in the mid-20’s and overcast, and all that snow made for tricky exposures. It’s tough to check pix on the camera screen, too, because of the brightness. Even with all the modern metering, snow is still overwhelmingly bright. I got too involved looking for stick arms, berry buttons and other adornments, as well as assembling a snowman to put them on. Didn’t shoot as many photos as I could have, and I think I actually fished for a sum total of perhaps two minutes. Cavorting is so much better. I carved a few facial features into the snow, and inventive Ellie colored balls of snow with her blue drink to make eyes. Ryan said “He looks like George Washington!” Maybe the pix don’t show it, or maybe you had to be participating in the cavorting to appreciate it.
From The Pond
Manning The Auger
Rolling The Snow
…Over The Brother
Evan The Mule
Until Next Time!
I’d like to promise more fotos and less frolic next time, but somehow that seems unlikely.
Ryan and I loaded the kayaks in the truck and hit the road at 4 a.m. We had planned our trip to Owl’s Head Mountain in the Keene Valley, the High Peaks Region of the Adirondack Mountains, for weeks. The weather could not have been more perfect for hiking, and hadn’t dropped below 55 degrees F overnight. The goal was to be on the Owl’s Head lookout when the sun rose over the Green Mountains of Vermont, and crawled it’s way to some of New York’s greatest natural wonders, The Adirondacks, just in time for their spectacular fall foliage display. Along the way, somehow we tossed a kayak into the back window of Ryan’s Toyota Tundra, breaking the glass. How lucky we were that was to be the single downer of the entire day, and we got it out of the way before sunrise. As the dawn sky began to brighten, the ride was one of phenomenal beauty. The destination was gorgeous, the trail itself was beautiful, the view from the Lookout awe-inspiring. There are not enough superlatives to describe climbing up, standing on, or descending from that summit, so I must let photos speak for me. After the Owl’s head hike, we launched the kayaks on nearby Mirror Lake, and watched the sunrise again, this time over a granite bluff as it slowly spilled its way into our placid pool. A cormorant greeted us, and a pair of mergansers joined us. Or should I say we joined them? Along the way we passed the Lake Placid Olympic Training Center and the strange structure rising up out of the mountain woodlands; the ski jump tower, viewable from the road to the Adirondack Loj and South Meadows Wilderness Area. I’d suggest you see the Adirondacks some time, but then again these gems are some heirlooms I am tempted to keep for myself. You stay home, and enjoy the pictures. I’ll take care of the mountain climbing for you! – Paz
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High Peaks Color
Sunrise on Owl’s Head
Ryan & I at the summit
Colorful Leaf Wreath
Bright Autumn Sun
High Altitude Resident
Sunrise over the bluff
Cormorant Greets the day
Morning on Mirror Lake
Mergansers planning lunch
Invitation to swim
The Happy Couple
Self-portrait in Tundra mirror
High Peaks Meadow
Olympic Ski Tower
Colors of September
Hope you get a chance to get out and enjoy some of the lovely fall!
Remember, there’s more than one way to respond if someone tells you “Take a hike!”